More of the same

I long to be free from the bondage I'm in. I'm the one holding us back right? Why can't I just man up? What's wrong with me? Please allow us to still be able to get the car and help with school..... is that too much? Is it? I know you are there.. so why am I so alone?

Sadness & Fear

I'm full of fear and I can't let it go. I don't know what to do...I try to fix things and surrender but it's not working. Nothing works. I feel alone and I don't want to go home. What do YOU want me to do? If it's what he wants then fine..but is that what you want or is this about obedience? I'm scared.